Lakeview Nights

Mike Corthell

Lakeview Nights

The nights are long

the days are longer

will my mind get any stronger...

I can see my mind in my brain

but it doesn't work – not the same

Sounds I hear in the blackness

a scream, a yell

sympathy’s lack-ness

Waking at 3:00

in a panic...

I can feel me

Slipping inside a maze of worms

my mind is a slithering fool

Wake again at 6:45

I'm not dead yet

still alive, for what?

I look at another day in my self-made hell

A day past I was walking and driving...

smoking weed and drinking

I killed my friend and killed the best of me

''I am not going to get better am I?,'' I ask staff

Telling me no, how do they know?

...or telling me yes

Which way I went and now how to go?

I am human and I can feel

I can love, I can see what this has done to me

what it did to my family and my God...help me!

A living angel tells me that time is a universal medication

that heals all wounds -

I believe him...